I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the word, “frame.”  Surmising, Merriam-Webster defines it as 1) physique, 2) the underlying construction system or structure that gives shape or strength, and/or 3) an open use or structure made for admitting, enclosing, or supporting something.  At my age, I feel I have enough experience to comment upon this.  God forbid an innocent unknowingly infiltrates the ranks of the priviliged.  Why, it MUST be a setup!  The word “framed” cannot help but come to mind.  I think what we choose to frame says a lot about who we are.  I have our annual family picture changed out and placed above our fireplace.  On our stairway I have previous years of my precious family, magazine covers on which our little girl was featured, and lots of travel photographs we have had as a family.  In our daughter’s room she has framed, autographed playbills of performances we have seen together at the theatre.  Above every doorway in our home there is a cross.  I have original paintings of flowers, the Eiffel Tower, wolves, and various churches we have visited decorating our walls.  My husband has framed mostly maps of periods in time in which he is interested, ranging from the Old Testament to Native American lands.  Our daughter’s “art work” is also framed and displayed in our home.  In my all-time favorite move, “Ever After,” Drew Barrymore, the main character, recites Sir Thomas Mores’ “Utopia.”

“For if you suffer your people to be ill-educated, and their manners to be corrupted from their infancy, and then punish them for those crimes to which their first education disposed them, what else is to be concluded from this, but that you first make thieves and then punish them.”

I love this on so many levels.  It is my sincere belief that most people are good.  Desperation, however, can drive good people into doing things which they may not have ever would have chosen to do.  The way we “frame” the homeless all too often is that they must be “nuts” or on drugs.  How we choose to frame people and/or situations becomes our “truth.”  What do you choose to frame in your home?  Family?  Random pictures selected by an interior decorator which have no meaning?  Even in a photo, what do you choose to “frame” in that shot … only your “perfect” family close up or a wider view of the world?  Unfortunately, all too often, we “frame” a scenario in our mind which has no basis in reality.  Just because someone is rich does not mean they are benevolent.  Just because someone is poor does not mean they are lazy.  I submit we “frame” what we value.  I would adjure you not to do yourself the disservice of “framing” something based upon an initial meeting or someone’s past.  People live their whole lives without truly valuing what has been placed right before them.  Whatever your current situation in life — consider what to frame.

My little girl is covered in bruises and scratches, just as I was when I was a kid, and for many of the same reasons … primarily climbing trees and kissing cats.  I remember Mama always being horrified because I went to church black and blue and sometimes bloodied.  This picture was taken yesterday after my girl slipped and fell so hard her gums fuzed into her braces.  (That’s a cat scratch on her cheek she received after doling out one too many kisses.)  One of my earliest memories is of drinking my mother’s bottle of Avon Skin So Soft when I was four.  That was back before they had “childproof” caps.  I remember it because of the charcoal they gave me to throw it all up.  My little one was just four when she had to have both an endoscopy and a colonoscopy, and I recall feeling helpless as I watched her vomit.  When I was in kindergarten I completely severed a finger on my left hand just above the knuckle.  For the record it continued to grow normally even though I’d held it in my other hand separately for over five hours.  When my girl was in kindergarten she fell off the “monkey bars” at school and wound up having to have surgery.  She also had two rather large screws which protruded outside of her cast that pinned her elbow together at the growth plate.  I can still remember cracking my forehead on the corner of Daddy’s desk and hitting an artery — so blood shot out for feet in every direction but not one drop hit my face.  When my little one had to have eye surgery she involuntarily emitted tears of blood.  My beautiful mother was a red-head, and in the 1970s folks thought you were nuts if you said you required careful handling with anesthesia.  Mama fell and broke her hip and her femur bone when she was in her ’70s.  I tried SO HARD to warn them about the anesthesia; my little mother was placed in intensive care for DAYS after that surgery.  The hospital wing she was in was circular with pods that looked liked something out of Star Trek.  When my child had another surgery, an anesthesiologist dismissed my concerns that she’d inherited my mother’s red-headed genes even though she has auburn hair.  After the “routine” procedure my little one did not readily “come out” of the anesthesia.  In fact everyone else went home by noon and my child was still completely lethargic by sundown.  We finally got to take her home … with the doctor’s personal cell phone.  I shall refrain from mentioning some other pretty gory accidents I had as a kid in the superstitious hopes they won’t happen to my Baby Doll as well.  The American professional wrestler Johnny Gargano said, “You can never control injuries.  Accidents happen; that’s just how things go.”  I have various scars on my body which do not bother me at all; I guess I’m just not super vain.  Now my little girl has scars on her body that carry stories with them just as mine do.  However I confess I hope she does not get into anymore accidents.

When I was very little, I have a vague memory of sitting in front of our console TV and catching the end of “The Lawerence Welk Show.”  I know there was a big band and dancing, but mostly I remember the bubbles.  As I was trying to recall more, I discovered the bubbles were intended as a visual tagline for his “Champagne Music.”  To further date myself, I remember my folks liking a song by a singer named Don Ho entitled “Tiny Bubbles.”  I can remember loving Mr. Bubble and always begging to have him for my bath.  Skip ahead to more modern times and I think of 50 Cent’s “You can find me in the club, bottle full of bub” song.  I loved the same old school bottle of bubbles that my child does now and I started to fall in love with my future husband when I found out his email address had “bubble gun” in it.  I have brought bubble “guns” to the arboretum, picnics, outdoor movie nights, and listening to the symphony outdoors, all as an adult.  When our little girl was younger she had a birthday party at a bounce house place and I remember the deluxe package came with a bubble machine.  Well, yeah!!!  So recently when she got invited to a birthday party for her sweet friend it turns out they rented a bubble truck.  Here I am picturing something out of that old TV show and the woman in charge was wearing a “Ghostbusters” shirt.  My little girl had not seen the original movie, but did watch the remake with all female leads.  Instead of individual bubbles gently billowing in the wind, imagine a machine that just blasted them out for over an hour as they grew from ankle height to waist height to above all of our heads.  The weather was idyllic, music was blasting, and it was punctuated by shrieks of joy.  I’m not sure which one of us thought the bubbles were the most magic.  Tom Noddy, the stage name of an American entertainer whose TV performances of “Bubble Magic” with soap bubbles in the early 1980’s led to “Bubble Festivals” across America, once said, “Bubbles are always new; you just can’t find an old bubble.”  I have always noted bubbles were ephemeral — whether they are in Champagne, gum, or the tub.  Perhaps for that reason alone I shall continue to always delight in bubbles.

As a child of the 70’s I confess I am LOVING seeing the fashion pendulum swinging back around.  Of course there would be no way I could fit into my old jeans because I was a little kid.  Still, it makes me happy to see wide-legged pants coming back into vogue, little black girls either wearing their hair natural or sectioned off in braids and topped by those lucite ball hair ties I can still remember.  In the fourth grade, the same age my little girl is now, our elementary school got “busing.”  This was where they would take (black) kids from one side of town and bring them to another (white.)  I had a best friend who would “plait” my hair at recess everyday and she’d take her own different colored hair barrettes out of her own hair and put them into mine.  The next day I’d bring them to school and we’d switch.  She had barrettes in all in different colors, shapes, and styles.  My mother disliked my grandmother braiding her hair so she hated how I came home.  I can still remember sitting on the steps while Peggy divided my hair with her comb down to the scalp in precise little squares.  She would then braid each section and secure it with one of her cool barrettes.  We would sing “Ring My Bell” by Anita Ward and she would call me her “Honey Child.”  She always had candy and would share her Now & Laters with me.  It was such a happy time.  I’m not sure if it’s because my father was half-Choctaw and always had a foot in both the “colored” and the “white” world, but times were changing and suddenly I was playing tether ball on the black top and jumping rope Double Dutch style.  We would sit on the ground and play hand clapping games like “Down Down Baby,” “Miss Mary Mack,” and “The Slide” to name a few.  Ironically, I had a half-white/half-black girlfriend who was adopted into a white family and the black kids were merciless to her.  She looked “black” but she didn’t know how to do her hair, she talked “too white,” etc.  Frankly I never understood why I felt so at home with my black girlfriends with my strawberry-blonde hair and green-blue eyes.  It didn’t seem fair.  Of course Joy was the best friend I had in our apartments and I always stuck up for her.  Our parish recently celebrated its 75th anniversary and the theme was the ’70s.  Our now ten-year-old recently had a rollerskating birthday party at my childhood skating rink.  To an outsider, it’s like stepping back in time.  For me, it’s like reliving a bit of my childhood.  But I miss the carpet and the “toadstools” where everyone would would sit back to back in a circle to lace up their skates.  I miss the bi-colored streamers that would flutter from the paneled ceiling and how all the white globes alternated colors in time with the music.  The great big disco ball is still there, though, and turning in all its glory.  For me, being born in 1970, the decade meant “The Brady Bunch” and “Good Times” on TV.  I looked more like one of the Brady girls but growing up in apartment, watching my father always trying to get ahead, I related much more with “Good Times.”  I can still remember running down the hall of our elementary school and shouting, “School is out!  Out of sight!  DYNOMITE!!!” at the end of the year.  Nicholas Kristof, an American journalist and political commentator, is quoting as having said, “Since the end of the 1970s, something has gone profoundly wrong in America.  Inequality has soared.  Educational progress slowed.  Incarceration rates quintupled.  Family breakdown accelerated.  Median household income stagnated.”  In a lot of instances, I feel I must agree.  Anglican Archbishop Desmond Tutu of South Africa has described Kristof as an “honorary African” for shining a light on neglected conflicts.  For me “African-American” means a first generation “African” who became an American citizen.  I believe I have said before it was America’s 26th President of the United States, Theodore Roosevelt, who barred the hyphenated nationalities from describing race.  I whole-heartledy believe this:  to hyphenate is to separate.  Our family decided to keep the ’70s “staying alive” by dressing up from that time for Halloween.  This picture I snapped of my husband makes my heart flip!  “Grease” was my favorite movie growing up and I still love it.  My formative years were a time of great change for this country; for American Indians struggling to be heard, for women whose voices were just coming into play in both the workforce and sports, and for so much more.  I do not wish to gloss over our nation’s painful past.  However, it is my hope that we can not only all acknowledge our history’s truths — but to press on toward a more perfect union … just like I learned about from the “School House Rock” cartoons I grew up watching every Saturday morning before rollerskating in the 1970’s.

I suppose it is erroneous to assume that women are all romantics.  As an adult, I realize it was my father who had the romantic heart and, as a girl, watching how he treated my mother inherently spoiled me.  Back in the ’70s (when people still actually got the newspaper) there was a “comic strip” entitled, “Love Is …”  I remember it was always one frame, in black and white, and had a saying in response at the bottom.  Daddy would often cut them out for my mother and leave them on the refrigerator.  Some were so cherished I remember pulling faded, yellowed ones down in the late ’90s after my father died.  It has been said that most people communicate in one or more of “The Five Love Languages” which are acts of service, gift-giving, physical touch, quality time, and words of affection.  When they were dating in high school, my grandmother asked that daddy stop bringing orchids every weekend because there was no room left in her refrigerator.  One of my fondest memories is that my folks always held hands.  They held hands in church, at the movies, walking into the grocery store, and at home when no one was around.  The sight of my half Choctaw father’s huge red hand dwarfing my petite half French/half Irish little mother’s dainty freckled one is indelibly etched into my mind.  In terms of quality time — when my father was not working he was home.  Oh I know many people pooh-pooh couples spending all their time with one another.  Of course they could spend time with their respective friends, but mostly they preferred to be together.  My father never failed to tell me or my mother that he loved us, or that he was proud of me.  He would say it every time he left the house and always before prayers at bed.  Freudian or not, my father shaped my life and how I view men.  I still believe I married the man who is the closest to my father in many ways.  He constantly leaves little things on my night stand he knows I might like.  He gave me a fossil he’d found in a parking lot.  It is a 3-D imprint of a shell he’d managed to spot that dates back to a time when Dallas was underwater … roughly 265 million years ago.  Fifteen years later it is still on my nightstand.  When we were first dating, he took me to a “society” ball and impulsively snatched a rose that was in the centerpiece of our candlelit, linen table.  As he presented it to me he said, “Baby Doll, you are not only more beautiful than this rose; you are the most beautiful woman here!”  My husband works INCESSANTLY and yet he never fails to call me during his sacred dinner time.  He also texts to see if we need anything from the store.  So, back to notes.  Now it is I who tend to leave them … mostly to our daughter.  I am so glad she really appreciates whatever it is I take the time to write.  That could vary from, “I love you so much!” to “Work hard and do your best!”  Recently we got a new refrigerator which is a “smart” one that stores family calendars, gives recipe ideas, lets you post photos, and suggests things to reorder for your shopping list.  It can even show you inside your fridge so when you’re at the store and you cannot remember if you have butter you can see.  I am hoping this high tech fridge keeps our little family more organized.  I do not always leave my daughter notes every day but, at a minimum, I try to once a week.  I envision her opening her lunchbox and feeling loved and encouraged.  The other day she was late getting out for her father to take her to school.  I kept telling her she needed to hurry but her little voice was so sweet as she asked me to wait.  It turns out she’d surprised me with a note of her own on Frosty (the name of our refrigerator.)  I am an only child and always signed things to my mother, “Love, Your Favorite Child.”  I’m not exactly sure if she was going for the same thing, but her sentiment struck me deeply nevertheless.  The American author and motivational speaker Leo Buscaglia, also known as “Dr. Love,” once said, “Love is always bestowed as a gift — freely, willingly and without expectation.  We don’t love to be loved; we love to love.”  I had left my now fourth grader a note in her lunchbox her first week of school, but it was her note to me the second week that made me feel so very loved … just a note on the fridge.

I went to mostly public schools growing up until I got into SMU on academic scholarship after attending a community college for two years.  My kindergarten and first grade years were spent in a small, “Christian” private school.  I attended public elementary from second grade through sixth.  Middle school was seventh and eighth, and high school was Freshman (9th), Sophomore (10th), Junior (11th), and Senior (12th.)  The year that I loved so much was fourth grade.  I’ll never forget we got to go UPSTAIRS AND switch teachers!  We had a homeroom teacher and then actually got to move from class to class.  We were old enough to be in the talent show and that was the year I made a program called “Talented and Gifted” which just really meant we were able to learn cooler stuff and more was expected of us.  One of the things I remember about the fourth grade was that after math and before lunch we got to play “the Line Up game.”  So, our teacher would call out a color and those kids got to get in line first.  To be last to the cafeteria was awful and it meant there was not enough time to really relax or even properly digest your food.  “If you are wearing red you may line up,” Mr. Dealey would say.  Groans ensued for those not wearing red.  “Next!  You may line up if you are wearing green!” (more moaning) “and after that yellow!  Yellow may line up next!”  I think as we become adults we forget what a big deal the little things are, like being first in line.  It was 1980 and Sears had a line of clothing called “Toughskins.”  Their schtick was, if your child could put a hole in it they would replace it.  Being an avid outdoor kid, I was always getting into some kind of scrape.  As a switch from jeans, Mama bought me these plaid pants (same brand of course) and I despised them.  I find myself wondering now if I wouldn’t put my own little girl in them; with hindsight they were the end of the 1970’s adorable.  Anyway, I found a use for those pants and they served me well the entire year — for the Line Up game!!!  It did not matter WHAT color that man called; my pants had it all.  The American individualist Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, “Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.”  And that is my hope for my growing little one this year; welcome to Fourth grade.